I want to talk about a comment from my last post. My last post was about actually having found out what I weigh for the first time in a few years. The great and wise Marshy of Do you have an Extra Large in this? said:
"...you've found out, you're not in the dark anymore, and now, you've got the power to work towards a healthier you. :-)"
This is what I am going to address tonight.
I disagree. Knowing my weight really doesn't do it for me. It is just a number. A big number right now, but a number. I do not care all that much about the number.
What matters to me is how I look and how I feel. I should make it very clear right now that I have no intention of tracking my weight the way FLG has. I may track something like inches, but the number is and always will be just a number to me.
I feel bad. I look huge. That's what I work on. :)
Saturday, August 30, 2008
Thursday, August 21, 2008
It could be worse.
I did it. A week ago. I finally stood on a scale, and saw what damage I had done to my 260 pound body.
In 2 1/2 years, I gained 50 pounds.
I thought it was far more.
So, I am over 300 pounds, which is disconcerting. I feel it. I feel every pound of it every day.
It seems that I write here mostly when I am at my hungriest. I am hungry for a reason right now. I had lunch 12 hours ago, and a small dinner/snack about 5 hours ago. Which means that I really need to find some proper food.
I gave myself a bit of a workout today in washing my car. I know this will sound odd, but there was a lot of climbing and other work involved. I lost my hose nozzle, so I had to keep going back to the shut off. And the car does not look great. I think I need to find something better to wash the car with.
I think I mentioned before how much I love the Olympics. I am watching the Men's Beach Volleyball gold medal match. Dalhausser/Rogers (USA) vs. Marcio/Fabio. Sometimes, I have to wonder what it is like to be from certain other countries. I am just so used to living here. I love it here, but it could be interesting to experience something different.
Anyhow, the Jamaicans have been amazing on the track. There are some fast people on that island. The US has really faltered, but I do not care too much. The US dominated swimming so thoroughly that I would feel greedy if I expected more of them.
Misty May-Traenor and Kerri Walsh won gold in Women's Beach Volleyball. Amazing to watch.
Anyhow, they are over fairly soon. A few days, I believe. I'll be happy and sad to see them go. They take so much of my time and attention when they are here, it will be nice to get back to normal life, with non-TV leisure time. At the same time, I waited for this for 4 years. I missed most of Athens and Sydney, so this has been especially wonderful. Even if NBC's coverage is crap.
I'm babbling. I need some food.
In 2 1/2 years, I gained 50 pounds.
I thought it was far more.
So, I am over 300 pounds, which is disconcerting. I feel it. I feel every pound of it every day.
It seems that I write here mostly when I am at my hungriest. I am hungry for a reason right now. I had lunch 12 hours ago, and a small dinner/snack about 5 hours ago. Which means that I really need to find some proper food.
I gave myself a bit of a workout today in washing my car. I know this will sound odd, but there was a lot of climbing and other work involved. I lost my hose nozzle, so I had to keep going back to the shut off. And the car does not look great. I think I need to find something better to wash the car with.
I think I mentioned before how much I love the Olympics. I am watching the Men's Beach Volleyball gold medal match. Dalhausser/Rogers (USA) vs. Marcio/Fabio. Sometimes, I have to wonder what it is like to be from certain other countries. I am just so used to living here. I love it here, but it could be interesting to experience something different.
Anyhow, the Jamaicans have been amazing on the track. There are some fast people on that island. The US has really faltered, but I do not care too much. The US dominated swimming so thoroughly that I would feel greedy if I expected more of them.
Misty May-Traenor and Kerri Walsh won gold in Women's Beach Volleyball. Amazing to watch.
Anyhow, they are over fairly soon. A few days, I believe. I'll be happy and sad to see them go. They take so much of my time and attention when they are here, it will be nice to get back to normal life, with non-TV leisure time. At the same time, I waited for this for 4 years. I missed most of Athens and Sydney, so this has been especially wonderful. Even if NBC's coverage is crap.
I'm babbling. I need some food.
Saturday, August 16, 2008
I got tagged.
FLG tagged me, so the fun stuff below is because of him. :)
I don't have anybody to tag, as my two readers already did this.
I'll make a better entry later, I promise. I have not had a lot of time for this, because I have been out of town for a few days, and watching the Olympics the rest of the time. I love the Olympics more than I can adequately describe with words. I have been enthralled with swimming. <3
What's something you'd love to say to your younger selves of 2, 5, 10, and 15 years ago? (Doesn't necessarily have to be the same thing each time.)
2 years ago; I was 26 years old - Don't be in such a hurry. No pressure. And save some money, would ya? Oh, and you're about to gain 50 pounds, so stay away from the fast food and start swimming a lot.
5 years ago; I was 23 years old - You are still young and in relatively good shape. Try to keep it that way, alright? You worked hard to get here, and your life is going to get better really soon. Oh, and it seems like a good idea, but it won't make your life better. So don't.
10 years ago; I was 18 years old - Don't take jobs you are not going to enjoy. It is just not worth it. Really, go to school. You will find your way into something you love. I suggest the medical field.
15 years ago; I was 12 years old - High school is going to suck. You will only have a couple of friends, and they might not always be loyal. Stick through it, and don't give up. It will only make your life harder down the road. Cling to what you love, and for the love of all that is holy, RUN away when you meet Melissa. *shudder*
I don't have anybody to tag, as my two readers already did this.
I'll make a better entry later, I promise. I have not had a lot of time for this, because I have been out of town for a few days, and watching the Olympics the rest of the time. I love the Olympics more than I can adequately describe with words. I have been enthralled with swimming. <3
What's something you'd love to say to your younger selves of 2, 5, 10, and 15 years ago? (Doesn't necessarily have to be the same thing each time.)
2 years ago; I was 26 years old - Don't be in such a hurry. No pressure. And save some money, would ya? Oh, and you're about to gain 50 pounds, so stay away from the fast food and start swimming a lot.
5 years ago; I was 23 years old - You are still young and in relatively good shape. Try to keep it that way, alright? You worked hard to get here, and your life is going to get better really soon. Oh, and it seems like a good idea, but it won't make your life better. So don't.
10 years ago; I was 18 years old - Don't take jobs you are not going to enjoy. It is just not worth it. Really, go to school. You will find your way into something you love. I suggest the medical field.
15 years ago; I was 12 years old - High school is going to suck. You will only have a couple of friends, and they might not always be loyal. Stick through it, and don't give up. It will only make your life harder down the road. Cling to what you love, and for the love of all that is holy, RUN away when you meet Melissa. *shudder*
Tuesday, August 5, 2008
Is he my only blog subject?
So, that strikeouts = -$ strikes again.
On Wednesday, which is technically tomorrow, we go to see Tim Lincecum pitch one more time. Being that we have been totally broke, especially lately, it is really nice to have to opportunity to do something really fun like this without spending a whole lot of money.
And speaking of money, a stupid error has caused us to be broker than normal. I messed up, the bank messed up, and I got screwed. So, we're going to a baseball game on Wednesday, and I am still figuring out how to pay the rent. It will work out, but it is super frustrating.
On the subject of what this blog is really about, I spent what I think was about an hour in the pool today. I love the pool. I hate that it is usually surrounded by the young party animals that live around here. I spent most of the time doing high leg lifts, which are easy on my knees if I am in the pool. I kept my heart rate up for a long time, and it felt great. I think this is something that I need to do more often.
I am so hungry right now.
On Wednesday, which is technically tomorrow, we go to see Tim Lincecum pitch one more time. Being that we have been totally broke, especially lately, it is really nice to have to opportunity to do something really fun like this without spending a whole lot of money.
And speaking of money, a stupid error has caused us to be broker than normal. I messed up, the bank messed up, and I got screwed. So, we're going to a baseball game on Wednesday, and I am still figuring out how to pay the rent. It will work out, but it is super frustrating.
On the subject of what this blog is really about, I spent what I think was about an hour in the pool today. I love the pool. I hate that it is usually surrounded by the young party animals that live around here. I spent most of the time doing high leg lifts, which are easy on my knees if I am in the pool. I kept my heart rate up for a long time, and it felt great. I think this is something that I need to do more often.
I am so hungry right now.
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