It doesn't get easier...

So, I have spent the last few days getting back in the saddle, so to speak. It sure isn't easy. Today has been an especially difficult one.

I hit the gym early today. Well, relatively early. Around 1 PM. Let me tell you, there are a lot less people at the gym at 1 PM than there are four hours later. And I love it.

So, half an hour on the bike, with only collegiate softball to watch. It wasn't even a good game. Then, I decided to try the stairmaster. Note to self: Stairs before bike next time. It hurt my knee anyhow, so I gave up quickly. Then, another 30 minutes on the treadmill, and I was done. It was not easy, but it also wasn't impossible.

The harder part just happened. I have been trying to get back into my pushup program. I did an exhaustion test a couple of days ago. The result was a fairly meager 25. Way better than I started, but not good enough. Then, I started week 3 today. And it killed me. I was focused as much as possible on form, and I'm not really entirely sure how I finished my last set. I'm not sure if it was focusing on form, or if it was the week off.

I know this isn't easy, and I am committed to it, anyhow. So, I am just going to keep plowing through. My arms are stronger already. Yay me.

I'm back...

Yeah, I took a little break there. I was on vacation. Sue me.

So, I am totally one of those people who has a really hard time losing weight. I have to continually work at it, and if I take time off, I am back to square one. Guess what? I'm back to square one. Haha. I don't even care.

So, I am back at my heaviest weight. So what? I still kick ass and take names.

I am sounding really cocky tonight. Why's that? Because, my friends, I am still freaking huge, but I am healthier than I have been since I was 50 pounds lighter, and that, my friends, is what all of this bullcrap is all about.

Plus, I came to kick ass and chew bubble gum. And I'm all out of bubble gum.

But seriously, I was out of town, and the diet went to automatic poo. I ate fast food, and I have no regrets about it. Mostly because I did not have a lot of options.

The trip was wonderful. I'll tell you about it later. With pictures!!

I kind of can't stop laughing...

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Softball was kind of lame tonight. We played a team called "Extreme", and they have the lame attitude to match the lame name. They won by two runs, assisted by two horrible calls made by the umpire. We are ready to beat them down in the summer league.

No weigh in tonight. I know I gained, I know some of it is muscle, and I just don't care. I will be back with it next week, I think. Just know that I am getting healthier, and I feel so good...

You can stand under my um-er-ella. Ella. Ella. Eh. Eh. Eh.

I just kind of feel like I should post something. I seem to be falling into a blogging rut, which I have definitely been in before. Monday, I have weigh in. The rest of the week? Not so much.

I feel like if I work out or whatever, it is not comment worthy. If I don't, it is also not. But there is not really a whole lot going on for me. Bleh.

I got an overtime shift, so I am working a double starting tonight. Most of you probably don't know that I work 12 hour shifts, so a double is 24 hours. It was to be a short week for me, so the extra shift helps to pay the bills.

Last night I got my exercise in by walking all over the place in and around AT&T Park in San Francisco. Went to see Tim Lincecum pitch, of course. He was good, and the team was great until the 7th, when Merkin Valdez gave up the lead. They ended up losing. But it was fun, anyhow. We sat in the very last row of the stadium, which still has fantastic views of both the game and the bay.



Hoping to get a bit of gym time in before my shift tonight. Have a good day.

ZOMG WEEKLY WEIGH IN!!11

Sorry. After spending three days with a fever and no energy, I finally have energy again, and it is not being wasted!

I went up to my family's place to celebrate Mother's Day, and promptly contracted what the kids had. So, I spent most of my visit with a fever, some nausea, and no energy. I finally made it home last night, after missing a day of work, and it took until this afternoon for me to really feel better. And boy, do I feel better.

Softball was fun tonight, though it was a loss. We were behind all game, and finally made a comeback at the end. We only lost by two. And the playoffs are next Monday!

I am almost too excited for this. I have to tell you, I did not touch the scale this week, but I strongly anticipated a loss. I have moved up two belt notches, for crying out loud! I am on the last one!

Beginning Weight: 311.0 lbs. (141.1 kgs)
Last Week: 309.8 lbs. (140.2 kgs)
This Week: 304.8 lbs. (138.3 kgs)
Weight Lost This Week: 5.0 lbs (2.3 kgs)
Total Weight Lost: 6.2 lbs (2.8 kgs)


Yeah, I'm having a really good night.

Pain is gain?

Have I mentioned the push-up program I am doing?

HundredPushups.com is a website that has a push-up program, which supposedly allows one to progress to the point where they can do 100 straight push-ups.

Considering I can do maybe 1 real push-up, but probably not even one, I am doing this in a modified fashion. I do my push-ups against my window sill.

I know, this sounds semi-retarded, but the reality of it is, I can do 10 max right now, even against my sill. And after I do the program, I am extremely sore. So basically, I love it, and I feel like I am finally gaining some upper body strength.

Who wants to go to the gym??

I DO!! I DO!!

I went yesterday after work. Oh my word. I love it.

I am sometimes rather self-conscious, but it really helped that it seemed like I was looking around at other people whole lot more than they were looking at me.

Horrible chaffing. I need compression shorts before I go again. Sorry if that is TMI. Haha.

Anyhow, I spent half an hour on a bike. Not a normal one, but the kind where your legs are out in front of you. I LOVE that piece of equipment. It is so much more comfortable for me than the regular ones. Then, I spent another half hour on a treadmill at various speeds.

And all the time, I was listening to my new "workout" playlist on the iPod, and watching sports on the TVs. The gym is officially my brand new friend.

I am having to take an extra day of break between pushups. I tried. I am too sore to do them today. That makes me feel a bit pathetic, but that soreness is my muscle building, and that excites me.

Did you guys know that Jason Mraz is amazing? Because he is. So much.

Weekly weigh-in

Not a whole lot to say right now. Softball was canceled this week because Roseville is stupid. There was no rain before it was canceled, and there has been no rain at all today.

I have started a program which claims that I will be able to do 100 push-ups consecutively by the end of the 6 week program. I can not do regular push-ups, because I am fat and weak, so I am doing modified push-ups against my window sill. After I complete this program, I hope to have enough upper body strength to do the real thing, and then I might start all over again. That would be amazing.

I still have not been to the gym. I think I am a bit intimidated by it.

Why you are here.

Beginning Weight: 311.0 lbs. (141.1 kgs)
Last Week: 313.0 lbs (141.9 kgs)
This Week: 309.8 lbs. (140.2 kgs)
Weight Lost This Week: 3.2 lbs (1.5 kgs)
Total Weight Lost: 1.2 lbs (0.5 kgs)

I feel much better about this. For one thing, I have actually lost some weight again. Sure, it is a pound, but I like to see that negative. Secondly, I've already mentioned that I appear to be smaller, clothes fit better, all of that.

Also, I ordered three new polo shirts for work. I am beyond excited for this.

I am making a new friend, and I love that. Facebook is amazing for making friends with people you already know.

Honestly...

Who cares what the stupid scale says? My waist is smaller. This is evidenced by the fact that my belt are buckling in holes they have not seen before. IN fact, I need to dig my old belts out of storage, because these ones will soon be too big.

Also, I look way less fat in the face. It is amazing, really. I feel good.

Late night musings...

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